Assess your life.
Is it a repetition of same pattern of emotions, same events ?
Desires (desire for approval, desire to be loved) operate from your subconscious mind(past).
You do any action which is favourable to you or you have a benefit in that.
How to break this pattern and experience real love in life?
1. When you get angry, ask yourself "Where do i get this anger from?"
Getting angry is not wrong, release it from your mind. (I accept and release this anger (any emotion)
Whatever you hold, you will repeat.
Whatever emotion you experience, keep releasing it.
This is the first step towards self-realization.
2. Keep the picture of China aster flower (violet) with you and
pray to Divine Mother, "Divine mother, convert my desire mind."
You can also charge water with this picture and take it daily.
YOU SHOULD MAKE AN EFFORT TO RELEASE ANY EMOTION AND NOT TO HOLD IT.
Prayer helps you to surrender and call the Divine's grace to convert the desire mind.